Me at 18

I remember the time I turned 18 years old. I thought that being "of legal age" can give you all the access you want, especially with seemingly grown up things. Well, I was wrong.



18 was the first time I got really drunk at a friend's party. I woke up the next day with my head on a toilet bowl and a bad hangover. That experience can get me killed, and that taught me to drink only what I can handle.



18 was the age when I got my own pick up truck from my dad. I drove carefully and took really good care of it, like it was my first baby. To this day, my old pick up is still in our house garage. It doesn't work that well anymore, but I hope I can still give it a little drive one of these days when I visit my parents.



18 was the age I got into a serious relationship. But as serious as it was, it only lasted for a year and a half, due to differences and parting for college. I accepted the fact that indeed, first love isn't meant to last most of the time.



18 was when I broke ties with my long time best friend. We outgrew each other, and everything changed for both of us. It hurts more than breaking up with a guy. But later on, the wounds healed and we've got our much-wanted closure. Sometimes, it feels good to let go of people that isn't healthy for you anymore. Don't settle for less, because you deserve so much better when it comes to relationships.


At 18, I said goodbye to high school and embarked on my college journey by myself. Everything was awkward and scary. Adjusting was difficult. But I learned to break barriers, adjust to situations, and got unexpected friends, new experiences, and happy moments in return.


18 was the age I thought I was really a full-time grown up.


But it's not. It's just the start of your journey to maturity. We never really grow up, we just grow wiser. And that should be your goal in life, wiser.


Once in a while, feel free to have fun. Don't forget the inner child in you.

Writer's Block Hit Me

So let me leave you with a poem by Sylvia Plath

Untitled (Tyler Knott Gregson)

Source: http://sites.psu.edu/floresrcl2012/2013/02/07/tyler-knott-gregson-meets-anna-kendrick-week-15/

Spring Breeze

The Foundation of Love

Trust.

It's something so strong yet so fragile. It takes a lifetime to build and a few seconds to destroy it, smashed into pieces that can never be rebuild. If it can be rebuild, the process is harrowing. How can you try to put back something that can never be the same again?

Trust is important in any kind of relationship, whether it be with your parents, family, lover, or anyone else. Putting your trust in each other means you won't ever let the other down. It's having your backs. But trust also means that you don't tolerate each other's wrongdoings. It's having the courage to say what needs to be heard even if it doesn't want to be heard.

Trust is the foundation of love, of human relationships. When it is established between both of you, among you, that can flourish beautifully.

Waiting and Patience

As a child, I hated waiting.

I hated waiting in line. I hated having to wait for Christmas Eve to open my presents. I hated having to wait for my turn. Like all children, I did went through a stage of being stubborn and sometimes even throwing a tantrum when I have to wait for something or someone.

But as I grew older and wiser, I learned that waiting for things can teach us something, which is the value of patience. It's a trait that not all people have, and especially difficult to develop. But learning to be patient can bring wonders into your life.

Years of waiting in line and waiting for bigger things to come definitely taught me to be patient. Sometimes, the nicer blessing is being saved just for you. Sometimes, it's a way to protect you. And most of the time, waiting can assure you that your turn will come just in time for you.

Patience is not easy to develop, but a trait worth having.

Haste can be a waste and when you learn to work hard and wait, the best will come in your life.

This is Sandra Bullock's Fault. Haha.

I got stressed from watching the movie "Gravity". I can't take the fact that George Clooney's character was left adrift in outer space to die (SPOILER ALERT!), while Sandra Bullock's character, Dr. Ryan Stone, had to fend for herself all alone. She had to find a way to get back to earth and all her astronaut companions just died out. I was nervous watching the entire movie, and felt so sorry for Dr. Stone/Sandra. That was a heck of a watch, if you don't want a romantic movie and you want something spaced-theme.

Speaking of Sandra Bullock, I re-watched the movie "Ms. Congeniality", a throwback to my high school days wherein I watched it with my friends on a sleepover night. I loved her character there, Gracie Hart, who's tomboyish, awkward, funny, and sweet. She's an FBI agent who had to go undercover in a beauty pageant so they could catch the terrorist who planned to wreak havoc at the said event. This was the movie wherein Sandra Bullock had a strong hold on my mind, having never noticed her before (even in the movie "Speed"). 

Plus, Gracie Hart reminded me of my younger self, as a teenage girl in both high school and college. I never cared much about how I looked back then and most of my friends were the neighborhood jocks, who were fond of football and biking. Add to that, I can throw a mean punch if I have to. The cafeteria bully experienced my killer fists one time when he tried to steal my lunch, and since then, he never bothered me anymore. I got quite a reputation as "that tomboyish girl",but this comes with a price. My long-time high school crush refused to take me out as a prom date when I asked him to, and in the end, I went out with one of my neighborhood jock friends. Imagine seeing his astonished face when he saw me like this:

By the way, he got a treat from me seeing all dolled up for the prom, and that night, he revealed that he's liked me ever since. That was the shock of my life as an 17-year old girl, and though I reacted awkwardly at first, he told me he was going to wait for me. I did ended up liking him, but we didn't last long. So much for high school love.

What's the point of this lengthy post? Aside from my reminiscing, it goes to show that you should be comfortable in your own skin, because there will be people who will love you for the real you. And if you want to learn how to doll up, go ahead! It may not be the desired results at first, but eventually, you'll outgrow your awkward phase and your real beauty will shine through. 

Take this ageless beauty advice from me that doesn't even need expensive treatment or surgery.